Monday, March 14, 2011

Internal Dialogue

Me 1: AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

Me 2: Calm down! It's okay! Stop panicking!

Me 1: But... but... AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHhhhhaaaaaAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

Me 2: Oh my gosh! Shut up! Look, yes we've been filing paper. Yes, we've been making plans. Yes, it is scary. But we are doing this!

Me 1: But! School! Scary! Too old for this crap! Job! Bills! We're never going to make it!

Me 2: Yes. Scary. But, look, we've got this. For one, we're a tough a tough son of a bitch. Two,  people love us and will be helping us! We can. . . No, we will do this.

So, this is what has been in my head the last few weeks. Part of me is scared to death to return to school. (Incidentally, this is one of those days where that part of my brain is dominating my thoughts.) Part of me is excited and determined to do this thing. I'm ready to start moving forward. It's time to kick ass and chew bubble gum, and I'm all out of gum.

For the record, should I be concerned that my brain thinks in terms of "we" and not "I"?

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