Monday, March 14, 2011

Internal Dialogue

Me 1: AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

Me 2: Calm down! It's okay! Stop panicking!

Me 1: But... but... AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHhhhhaaaaaAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

Me 2: Oh my gosh! Shut up! Look, yes we've been filing paper. Yes, we've been making plans. Yes, it is scary. But we are doing this!

Me 1: But! School! Scary! Too old for this crap! Job! Bills! We're never going to make it!

Me 2: Yes. Scary. But, look, we've got this. For one, we're a tough a tough son of a bitch. Two,  people love us and will be helping us! We can. . . No, we will do this.

So, this is what has been in my head the last few weeks. Part of me is scared to death to return to school. (Incidentally, this is one of those days where that part of my brain is dominating my thoughts.) Part of me is excited and determined to do this thing. I'm ready to start moving forward. It's time to kick ass and chew bubble gum, and I'm all out of gum.

For the record, should I be concerned that my brain thinks in terms of "we" and not "I"?

Monday, March 7, 2011

Short Notes

Dear Body,

Please get healthy again. I need you.

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Dear Mind,

Stop it. You're not helping me right now.

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Dear Spirit,
Could you please put those other two in check? I know things are really out of whack, but we all need to be on the same page in the coming weeks and months.

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Dear Me,

Write more. Write more and be happy. Please?

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Dear Readers,

Sorry. Just trying to iron myself out. Bear with me.